Cross Roads

In my current art practice I feel I have ultimately come to a cross roads with my trajectories for the oncoming years. I feel that what sustains and ultimately creates desire and affection for my current art practice is figurative and gesture styles. Looking more complex into these styles I try to locate what it is about these styles that creates ideas which underpin my trajectories. I feel ultimately that gesture is the idea of freedom and energy, captivating the viewer with such loose expressive gestures, often non coherent to reality. 

The freedom and gap between the artist and the art work with materiality of mediums used, activates this field of energy that pulses the viewer to and away from the work. Figurative elements to this gesture I feel obis a sense of relief and sense to the often overwhelming chaotic gesture. 

In this writing i mentioned I felt I had come to a cross roads with my art practice, which i say this as a lecturer abruptly said that I am a right handed painter who creates gesture as habit, something which I should derive from. This ultimately took me back and challenged my passion for these ideas. Firstly what is habit? In my opinion gesture creates anything we express, the way we express our thoughts and feeling through hand gestures, intimate details of marks we create as a force of affection is also gesture, and any line and expression in my opinion is gesture. So how can gesture not be habit, when it is so conceived from our everyday life and experiences. 

Should I embrace and exaggerate this feeling of passion for gesture and prove I have more to say in an ongoing art practice or derive my own personal interests and follow my lectures perspective? I thought about this comment numerous times and questioned various ideas. Maybe I should do neither, I know to achieve things you've have never had, you've got to do something you've never done before. 

So exploring various territories could ultimately be hugely beneficial in spanning out and deepening my on-going art practice. But instead of walking away from my passion of my practice today, I can inject ideas of energy and freedom and expression into these new territories and also visa versa which i can see immense amount of potential development occurring through this exploration of various fields as we as artist do so naturally but I will ultimately apply more significantly in fields and territories I may not be familiar with or have yet to experience. I now after illustrating these ideas feel as those I need to research and ultimately execute different explorations without due or thought on some occasions, because when thinking to much about the work "habit" is a likely occurrence, and the play of chance more exhilarating and engaging than a work built up of repentance of "habit."